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Warp song 1
03:22
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A physicist philosopher whose name was Warp
In two thousand sixteen was killed by a car
Before I knew why she left, it was all over
Because some random man didn’t know how to drive sober
Somehow I was all fine
I still laughed at her words
Listened to Sonic Youth
But now I see her mark
She could have been more influential, now for us it’s just a memory
And I’m trying to lose repentance, this is not the way I meant it
And we both were children, I’m ashamed that I said
For three whole months I didn’t know she was dead
I asked my friend where you were, I hadn’t heard from you
I lived under a rock till it came crashing through
Why have I kept this in?
You deserve something good
For so long I did not
Know you were really gone
Where you are, can you hear?
Are you still writing poems?
Thinking about the universe?
I still want to decode
All your secret language, now for me it’s just a memory
And I’m trying to lose repentance, this is not the way I meant it
It’s so hard to collect
All the pieces of you
You’ve been gone for four years
What am I supposed to do?
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2. |
The adhesive goddess
02:56
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Those floating words reveal the stain
Underneath my bed frame
Locked in and out of cyberspace
Reliving pictures of your face
I wish I could relive the time
But not to bring you back, I’d find
Because I was left out, my mind was cold
For 90 days you were no more
Honor you decently
Not continue being me
He always thought everything you said
Was philosophical nonsense
After that day, he really saw
The beauty of who you are
Foster a truth, remind me this
You’re the adhesive goddess
Tied me to those who made me strong
Upheld me when in the wrong
I wish I could relive the time
But not to bring you back, I’d find
Because I was left out, my mind was cold
For 90 days you were no more
Honor you decently
Not continue being me
Maybe it’s fine, the way I played
I would not rather see my state
The way I use a tragedy
To feed on more apologies
Wrote a song, told the truth
Is it good enough for you?
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3. |
I see you
03:07
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All my little habits and obsessions leaking through from inside out
Can’t recall anything I’ve been told that leads me to this kind of game
Maybe I should play it silently and hope you get the best of me
Waiting for the truth just passing through, but I only want what gets me you
So is it just cold in your mind again
Everything I do is for you to see
I would live my life through your private eyes
So I just wish you could be here and
See me the way I see you
I’m a little girl and I don’t want it to be this way, I am different
I am changing sources that you view, I plug in different monitors
I am not afraid to go in front and let you judge what I can be
I should be direct, but I don’t want to, it’s easy to be extreme
So is it just cold in your mind again
Everything I do is for you to see
I would live my life through your private eyes
So I just wish you could be here and
See me the way I see you
I see you, I see you
Do I see you?
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4. |
Morning
02:21
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I will greet you in the morning
I’ll distract you from the sights you see
And we meet again tomorrow
But together will we ever be
Every time that you are with me
I think you already know
But it’s time for me to go home
‘Cause my time is running out
Save me with your words
Be the first although
You’re far
You’re far
Save me with your words
Be the first although
You’re far
You’re far
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5. |
Quiet bashing
02:13
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The problems at your bedroom side
The crazy calling up at night
The way you talk to move your hands
The way you slither up the sand
Hissing and sparkling
Like the man outside your door
Who wants a piece of you for more
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6. |
Medea
03:07
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I cannot feel anything anymore
This goes beyond comprehension
I have no reason to sing anymore
I have no place to go, no person to talk to
I could drift into a world where there’s someone to blame other than myself
Where I’m willing to move on, where I know what I want
I’ve lost a sense of cruelty
It must be done for retribution
I’m set, there’s nothing else I’ll do
No one can convince me
I’m going to kill my children
I’m going to give your woman
A poison robe that will burn her skin off
I’m going to kiss the poison off your lips
I’m going to die in my bedroom
I’m gonna gouge my own eyes out with the pins from your robe
Strange how I feel the same nothingness
Even if I don’t have the will
After just one event, you feel that dread
To push you out of your senses, to make some statement
I cannot feel anything anymore
This goes beyond comprehension
I have no reason to sing anymore
I have no place to go, no person to talk to
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7. |
Life is a game
02:56
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Life is a game
That’s what they said to me
The greater times you try, the better chance for a success
Cold-blooded fiends
What do they mean to me?
I do not understand the words they have put in my head
I’m an anomaly
I wish I could believe
The skinny values all backed up by tombstone eulogies
I wish I could believe
I wish I could believe
I wish I could believe
I wish I could believe
Does it make a better person
To go through a cycle of hurting?
Does it pay to be assertive?
All these questions, I’m still learning
I couldn’t breathe
The love that they perceive
It’s something you’re supposed to have inside by a certain time
Imagine me
Parading in the breeze
My shoulders bare and higher off the ground than they could be
What do they see?
Do they know I’m trying to be
Be functional like all the ones who get so many pleas
I wish I could believe
I wish I could believe
I wish I could believe
I wish I could believe
Have I really never been there?
Are my struggles valid despair?
Is this all a gender hurdle?
All these questions, I’m still learning
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8. |
This is fair
02:58
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So this is fair, fair
“You’ve got a lotta guts”
Then he told me about when he wept
At a party, then she walked inside
Then she asked why he was sad and he replied
“You know why
It’s mostly all from you”
And that’s one of his tales
But when it’s me
Who felt the same
And he’s to blame
He’s blind to everything that he caused
It’s alright when he’s not the victim
I put it in perspective
He did just the same as her
He wrote beautiful songs about her
So now I’ll quote him exactly in my lyrics
What’s the point of it anyway
He never read anything I sent
My stomach churns six times over again
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9. |
Down a stairway
03:51
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I'm falling down a stairway
I never wanted to behave
I have to love you either way
My eyes are fallen in anyway
I couldn't stay forever
The other ways are better
Oh, love me like you said there
You want to live forever
The times are never changing
The patterns rearranging
The gospel said it's all ours
Never believe it's too hard
My droning spire at night
Believe in tires to hide
A fantasy is rising
Never believed the sky beams
Undo the undulations
Forbidden conversations
Ecstatic violations
A good reincarnation
The sun receives a vision
To me this is all risen
I can't bother to listen
All saints, all sinners missing
The good parade ambition
I will not see you mythic
I cannot be a ribbon
Tied on the box of rhythm
Follow a sacred passion
Redo restore the action
Go like a churchbell hatchet
At night it's all reactions
I'm falling down a stairway now, now, now
I'm living life like an artisan clown
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10. |
The sun is gone
04:42
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My corruptions and my woes
Stealing everybody’s clothes
Faith of factor forms and tries
With the body of a fly
With my pieces all aligned
Without lies, I am defined
My identity is mad
Understand, paint it black
These facades all in my mind
Second guessing all the time
With my fingers on your spine
Racing towards the light
I wouldn’t save you if you were so blind
But patriarchies are all kind of right
Can a ghost be alive if the future is nigh
In a tent of contempt
With desire in the back calling shots
Can’t go on with this name, I need to steal the fame
Of modern men who are seeking pence
On the fence with a jet
My solution’s broken
Until God’s words are spoken
My party is done for now
All the cards already dealt
Drill that into your teeth
Dogs beat up my memory
I’m alone in my room
Until I saw your face
On my screen, but it’s not you
It’s a caricature of some dude
Cancelled that one before, I got it wrong somewhere
Following scrambled scars, try to play like a star
With my fingers on your spine
Racing towards the light
I wouldn’t save you if you were so blind
But patriarchies are all kind of right
My fruit is rot, can’t hear the song
With such a white tongue in my arm
Wearing away this will in me
The sun is gone, I’m warning you
I sought the truth sometime for you
With my whole booth crazy and rude
Hobbling in-out with my whole youth
The sun is gone
My tongue is wrong
Nobody cares all about
Black-eyed dog will stay for now
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11. |
Capital L
04:20
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Living in motion to find the one
Who rescues you from delusion of love
How can I find jubilation alone?
Staring at someone without a hope
Every page of my old diary
Dreamed for the hope in the books I would read
Now I can treasure someone who gives
Nearly the dreams that I had as a kid
How many times
Did I have to try
Till I found someone
Who could spell my name
Seasons are changing fast all the time
Wondering if I’m going to survive
I can’t indulge in looming the past
Live in the present, mind on the last
Draping a floral around stony base
Sewing the cracks of the statue I faced
In this embrace there’s the eye of a storm
Then turned my name to a capital L
How many times
Did I have to try
Till I found someone
Who could spell my name
I am Love
Sometimes it’s like all men are the same
I thought you’d leave too
Here I am, climbing down the ladder
What is left to aim?
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12. |
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Those floating words reveal the stain
Underneath my bed frame
Locked in and out of cyberspace
Reliving pictures of your face
I wish I could relive the time
But not to bring you back, I’d find
Because I was left out, my mind was cold
For 90 days you were no more
Honor you decently
Not continue being me
He always thought everything you said
Was philosophical nonsense
After that day, he really saw
The beauty of who you are
Foster a truth, remind me this
You’re the adhesive goddess
Tied me to those who made me strong
Upheld me when in the wrong
I wish I could relive the time
But not to bring you back, I’d find
Because I was left out, my mind was cold
For 90 days you were no more
Honor you decently
Not continue being me
Maybe it’s fine, the way I played
I would not rather see my state
The way I use a tragedy
To feed on more apologies
Wrote a song, told the truth
Is it good enough for you?
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Lylajean Evanston, Illinois
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